Anyway, it was pretty tiring but definitely satisfaction guaranteed!
It started with an individual exercise which eventually led to group exercises but the point is the satisfaction does not come from the exercise; rather the way the exercise goes.
Let's go back a week ago.
I had the same exercise and I felt I did not do well despite having tips given to improve my prowess. But boy it was satisfaction when I felt I surpassed myself. This is much like the Chinese saying when the apprentice has beaten the shit out of the master! I oozed with satisfaction and I thought this is the next best thing to orgasm!
Let's fast forward to a week later. This means today, the definitive moment which all of us call NOW!
I had the same exercise, was progressing well and I was just wondering, this is not satisfaction to me. I had the same 'success' last week and what was satisfaction then, is just plain feeling of nothing special!
But then I notice I'm doing as well as last week, in fact I was doing pretty bad, to be on the optimistic side, you can call it on par as the week before, to be realistic, I was not improving and may have well been declining!
Yet, I was feeling great because something special happened; I was being watched and I felt a sense of being appreciated. And I'm finally felt like I'm worth something.
You may think that I'm having self hallucinations but the dinner after the excercise proved to be decisive.
My friends were telling me the same thing and now all my suspicion has not only diminished, but end up as facts!
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